So Many Reasons to Give Thanks

In spite of the events of the last month, I am still thankful for so much. My parents drove down from Ohio for the holiday. Email keeps me connected to my brother in Saudi Arabia. The sun is shining. My children and husband are healthy. We are celebrating in our new home. Did I already say the sun is shining? Let me not mention the wonderful aroma of turkey and trimmings in our house.

The point is, in spite of all things, we must give thanks. We have to focus on those things that are positive and uplifting. That's what I've been trying to do. Have a safe and wonderful Thanksgiving. May God bless and shine on you all.

Where Did the Time Go?

Already Thanksgiving is upon us. It's so hard to believe that we are weeks away from another new year. In our home, we are busily making preparations. My parents are coming down from the north. We are all so excited for their arrival.

This year while you're planning parties, take some time to truly give thanks for all we have. The most impoverished person here has so much more than many in other countries.

In spite of the economy, we are blessed. Gas prices are lower right now. My purse appreciates that! Whether or not stock prices rise or 401k's are stable, God never changes. He promised to supply all of our needs according to His riches in heaven. As one of His creation, we have the right to tap into that. That should make you feel pretty rich.

Maybe I spoke too soon

Lately, I have been feeling like I have post partum depression, only the crib is empty. It honestly doesn't seem fair. As the hcg in my blood has gone down, so have my spirits. It's kind of weird to feel this way without having had a baby.

While I do feel that progress has been made, I had a set-back yesterday. I had to have my blood drawn for the third time to check my hcg. That was bad enough. When I arrived at the daycare, our son's teacher asked me how I was feeling. I knew what she meant, so I told her and the other teacher that I had lost the baby. Of course they were sweet and sympathetic, but things like that make it hard for me to move ahead.

I want to cry about everything, even being stuck in traffic. Pray for me. I need to get back to my old self. But there is good news. Today The Biggest Loser comes on! That makes me happy!

Historic Moments

I've avoided politics up until this point. However, today is a big day for our country. I heard on the news that no matter which way it goes, we make history today. If Obama wins, he will be the first African-American president. If McCain wins, he will be the oldest first term president and Palin, the first female.

Whatever happens, we should be thankful to live in this country. We have a democracy that gives us the right to choose our leader by voting. I think that's pretty amazing. God bless America! I always wanted to say that!

Moving in a Positive Direction

On Thursday I had an appointment. It was what should have been my first real appointment of the pregnancy. I was to meet the midwife and learn about labor and delivery at the hospital. Instead, I was scheduled for another ultrasound to make sure that there was nothing left of my baby. Let's just say that Thursday was not a good day for me.

The good news is, everything is pretty much gone. The bad news is, everything is pretty much gone. It does not look like I will need a D&C. An answered prayer. But now, I'm not pregnant any more, and I want to be. I've been doing okay. The physical pain has ceased, although emotional damage has been done. I am doing my best... I should say, WE are doing our best to move forward one day at a time. Some days I laugh, some days, I cry. At times, it's a little of both. For now, that's the best I can do. But, I will not despair. I have much to be thankful for, and I try to focus on those things right now.