WARNING: This post probably isn't for pious people who have never felt distant from God. Leave all judgment at the door.
My life has been filled with stresses lately. The walls have felt like they've been trying to close in around me. I've had a block between me and God, too. I've allowed life to get in the way of time that I spend with Him alone. I've been too tired and too lazy to fix it even though it has caused me innumerable problems. I can always justify the distance by saying I'm too tired to get up since I don't get to sleep through the night any more. But God is a funny guy. He's not interested in my excuses. He misses me, and He's set out to prove it to me.
For the past several days I have been waking up before my alarm and even when I have nowhere to go! It's been annoying. I've tried without success to just go back to sleep. So last night, before going to sleep, I prayed that God would allow me to get much needed sleep and that I would not wake up before the alarm again. While God heard my prayer, He did not obey. He's funny like that. Once again I tried to fall back to sleep with no luck. But this morning was different. I decided to pray that He would reveal to me why He kept waking me up against my will. This was apparently the prayer I should have prayed when this first started happening.
This morning, unlike recent mornings, began with a prayer for guidance. It continued with me taking a long-awaited spiritual journey through my YouVersion Bible while I allowed the Holy Spirit to be my tour guide. Amazing things are happening even as I write this. I'm glad that I put stubbornness on hold long enough to receive these blessings. My head feels clearer and my path straighter. It's funny how that happened only when I quit being disobedient to God and His attempts to get my attention. I'm just glad He loves me enough to not give up just because I'm being an idiot! ;)
Rubies are rare and precious jewels. Every facet is unique. When they are broken, they can only be restored by the Creator.
3 comments:
Funny thing, I had a dream last night, and in it was a computer screen of you typing your blog, but I couldn't stay to read it because someone/something was pulling me away (I don't remember the rest of my dream to know what that was)and I decided I would check your blog out later when you were done typing. How crazy is that!!!! Not kidding!
jenimama1, I just saw your comment! It's so wild that you had that dream!
I can relate to this. I saw this when you posted it, but didn't have time to read it until now.
God has a unique way of getting our attention, by taking away things we hold too close - like sleep!
Thanks as always for being transparent.
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