I'm mad. I have no control over my life, and neither do you have any over yours. Our Master puppeteer has all of the control. And while I agree, He has the sole right, being the Creator and all... I still get mad!Since miscarrying a couple of months ago, I am eager to have another baby. Everyone says, "in God's time." What about my time? At times I am consumed with what I want. Yeah, I know, those who are better Christians than I never experience these irrational thoughts.
Have you ever thought of how extreme the concept of faith in an unseen being is? It's mind-blowing! I even feel guilty for resenting God's power. Perhaps I should. After all, I am very blessed. But for some reason, being blessed does not prevent me from these thoughts from time to time. I get scared sometimes, even though God did not give me that spirit.
The funny thing is that at the end of the day, I return to sanity. I find myself thankful for what I have. I try not to focus on the future. I try to live each day as though I won't have any more and bask in His love. But I do have some wild thoughts before getting there. And sometimes the journey takes longer than I'd like to admit.
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Wow that was deep...you're right cause I'm guilty of not always admitting that even though we all struggle with it. For some reason it's so much easier to give the appearance that we have it all together...
You'll have to teach me to write these short posts that get to the point and have so much meaning packed in at the same time. I tend to ramble on and on repeating myself over and over.
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